Can't sleep.

Too tired to fall asleep.

Had a few days off. I didn't manage to fulfil everything I planned, but I did manage to be as lazy as possible. Pretty good closure before going back to work: Driving to a show on a Sunday night with pretty nice people. Sitting outside between ugly concrete walls on wobbly garden chairs mocking about the opening band and watching the sky full of stars above us. Then going back into a dark, sweaty basement to listen to the second band which play total summer music. Coming home very late, not being able to sleep. Being totally tired but exhilarated on Monday, sad to be back at work again but with happy summer music in my head. Sometimes it's stunning how cheerful I can be.

If you were sane

your heart wouldn't ache.

Cruel summer.

Good idea: iced cappuccino and two brownies which were stored in the fridge over night for breakfast.

It's just a mockery.

Dear world, sometimes you are so ridiculous.

Not only no time, headache, a dirty kitchen and a broken car.
I've wanted to buy cigarettes today together with my groceries and was told to show my ID. Say what? I'm 33 years old.
She was really serious. Actually I didn't know how to react, my first impulse was: to laugh. But I couldn't so I was just staring at her, smirking, and asked: "Seriously? Why?". She wouldn't answer and said, she won't sell me cigarettes If I don't show my ID. Probably my question was a bit useless in the first place.

But I couldn't show my ID because I don't have it anymore. Some stupid asshole stole it along with my whole wallet, my cell phone and my Yashica T4. So I'm yashicaless right now. Of course I didn't tell her any of these things. I just paid my other stuff and walked away, 3 meters across the room to a small newspaper kiosk and bought the cigarettes over there.

However, although I'll be yashicaless for a while, there are good things. 
Some people showed wonderful support, as well as practically, emotionally and financially.

Thank you very much, I really appreciate this.

Dear world, sometimes you are really ridiculous. Fortunately there are people who are able to adjust this deficit sometimes.

I got some news for you.

Don't even need you, too.

The lesson now that we must learn

- we never get what we deserve.

We've already lost.

It's not going to be okay

It's not going to be alright

'cause I gotta get out of here.

I just can't take any of you seriously

And I can't keep keeping myself company